Wednesday, January 02, 2008

9:38 PM

i miss u.

The reason im blogging again is because im feeling really really down. I was actually preparing stuffs for tomorrow when i came across this picture i took with __. I suddenly broke down in tears because i suddenly remembered of all those times i spent with him and _____ which brought me to where i am right now. I remember how dependant i was towards them. I really think i should be independant but i think i am not yet ready. I broke down in tears because i feel that things are all falling apart. It hurts me that things have actually _____. I just can't seem to accept that fact and thats final.

I started to play a piano instrumental, and each time i hear every note, i start to collect tears at the tip of my eye getting the blurry vision. And it's because i felt a sudden pierce in my heart that i miss those moments which i hope will come back again. Maybe it just comes about once a year when i really need it the most.

What i don't understand is why must things always end up with the same ending for me. More importantly, why must i be so emotional to commit myself to all my friends. Oh well, i think things are still the same just that the atmosphere is more mature when we're without the rest. Is that so ? Or is it that i have changed or have you changed ? Or rather, you just feel more comfortable being with _____. All in all, when the same situation gets to me again, i don't want to lose it and in fact want to have the same way and routine of study.

And of all i have posted up here, the most important thing is that I MISS ___!

I LOVE ___!

and i hope my dreams and wishes will come true just like any other's wishes.

pssst! i swear i miss you. i swear i miss those times. But now i feel a difference in our relationship. I hope you will read this and know that its for you. Cos i wont tell you its for you!

*Myself

Apparently, like what one of my love always point out to me. People use this space to brag about how great god's creation is or telling the world how much they detest their own race or religion or even start whining about how much they hate their ugly girlfriend or boyfriend. I find it rather weird though. If that's the case, it defeats the title man! How saddening to see them use illiterate brans with no enzyme juices to be squeezed out because it seems to be typical man! Gosh! Anyhow, judge me for yourself.

Wednesday, January 02, 2008

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