Tuesday, November 13, 2007

12:13 AM

mixed emotions;

I suppose i shouldn't bring handphones to parties anymore. Today was hectic at work. I forgot to collect the party charges from the customer and came to macd. I came and got very stressed up and got others to clear up the mess that i made. And suddenly i started crying at the carpark. It all started when i read the message someone sent me.

It is true. Family matters are to be kept amongst themselves. However true this may get, i still am worried about you and will never stop worrying. I know you're not okay. I want you to share so that i can lend you my shoulder. I want to help because i don't want you to be back at square one where we one started off. I thought all these was over already. Its painful. Imagine strolling these tears just because im so stressed up cracking my brains what would have happened.

I'm pulling myself together so that i can keep going. Seriously, im trying to recover. I am not going to force you, but still i'd be sure to try to ask you once more. And let you decide. Oh well, can somebody go and tell _____ that i care and that im like worried for ______?

Yesterday things happened and i got over it thanks to the call. I talked things out. But now i am not angry but really very worried. I had problems working. I had problems thinking. All because i was brooding over that same message that brought me down.

It did happen when we first met and now we're getting back there again. My mind is gone and i'm definitely spinning. Im trying to be a person you've never known before. Someone who cares. But i guess im being too possesive that i am too worried for you and too concern for you. I cry too much for people that i forget about myself.

Is this a problem i face ? Or is this a good deed. I'm trying. I swear i'm trying to be strong. I think many know that i easily get affected with whatever that happens. Perhaps i should thank god that whatever happens, he still bring us together no matter what. All these past and present happenings that make me go crazy.

My body is aching. My mind is tired. My eye is hurting and my heart is breaking. No matter how heavy your burden might be, i assure my care and concern for you. Please know that.

No matter what, i still gotta tell myself that things aren't always on my side. Let's just hope he confides into me sometime soon.

Psst! If you are reading this and you know it's you please come and tell me what you're suppose to tell. And if anybody else is reading this and you know who im referring to, please go and tell him/her whatever i wrote here. And ask him/her to approach me and tell me whatever he/she is suppose to tell me. Please?

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Apparently, like what one of my love always point out to me. People use this space to brag about how great god's creation is or telling the world how much they detest their own race or religion or even start whining about how much they hate their ugly girlfriend or boyfriend. I find it rather weird though. If that's the case, it defeats the title man! How saddening to see them use illiterate brans with no enzyme juices to be squeezed out because it seems to be typical man! Gosh! Anyhow, judge me for yourself.

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