Friday, October 12, 2007

9:29 PM

fuckshits!

I realised something! People don't bother after all. First thing first, raye is here. I don't think its time to be bitching or fighting. I will let things be and lets settle things calmly...

Today it wasn't good at all. In fact, it was very sucky thanks to yesterday and today morning. I hate it when im down. I start to expect a lot of stuffs. Funny isn't it? To be typing this in the eve of raye. IM JUST NOT OKAY! I am not in the mood in celebrating raye!

I was crying just MOMENTS ago. I was seriously crying because i just can't stnad this. ITS NOT EASY TO BE ME! Im trying to be me, but im just not me when it comes to this. I try not to cry but end up crying. I try to smile but end up frowning. fuckshits! I hate this treatment.

How do you expect me to be shutting up and keeping things inside. Everything is inside of me. I am only a guy who is trying to be who he is. Where did all those go to ? WHERE?

I keep telling myself that you'd return. You walked away and said things and that somehow made my day. But you didn't fulfil it. It pains. How else do you want me to react besides crying. FUCK! I hate me.

If you don't know that im suffering in your silent escape then i will let you know that i AM! It hurts! These slits and blood is for you in the eve of raye. FUCKSHITS! I did something wrong or said something wrong isit ?

*Myself

Apparently, like what one of my love always point out to me. People use this space to brag about how great god's creation is or telling the world how much they detest their own race or religion or even start whining about how much they hate their ugly girlfriend or boyfriend. I find it rather weird though. If that's the case, it defeats the title man! How saddening to see them use illiterate brans with no enzyme juices to be squeezed out because it seems to be typical man! Gosh! Anyhow, judge me for yourself.

Friday, October 12, 2007

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