Friday, October 19, 2007

9:25 PM

are u okayy ?

heres the question: i can never imagine how you feel now but i'm sure i feel worse because i aint there with you. So, can you imagine how i feel ?

Seriously, yesterday i had a hard time sleeping thanks to worrying for RK and what happens and all. I am seriously worried about what CAN happen and what HAS happened and what IS happening. Fact is, im still not okayyy. Am i just telling myself im okayy ?

Yah. Ms vans is right. Im just spending 24hrs emo-ing at my blog. True. You know why ? Nobody or nothings gives me a reason to be jumping in joy or whatsoever.

Its sad to have someone who is in your heart to be having a lot of problems and acting like nothing happened and is alright. I know he's not okayy. I know. He's acting to be okayy. What do i have to do to make him feel better ? Instead, would i be making things worste or just breakdown hearing the news.

Let me state this clearly here. I would never ever stand to see someone close to me being handcarved and walk away in front of me. Id cry even more knowing that id be losing that person till god knows when. Yes, whatever it is people have to face consequences but so what? I still can never and will never stand to see it.

Am i not a good friend ? Am i just a reflection of a doll ? My days were never so bright till he stepped inside my life. I never got blue because of anything because you were there. Besides being blue about HIS problems. Yes, other people have been there. Though, there is always a point of time when you feel so good when someone you never even know as a acquintance suddenly became a part of your life ?

I always told myself that i will be okay if i knew that he is drifting apart from me. Fact is i will not and am not. I can't stand this treatment already. I don't know why!

God knows how im gonna be handling this situation knowing the fact that IM NOT OKAYYY!

Why am i still here? I should've moved on a long time ago but i still havent!
Im worrying for another person too. He's facing the same things. Im really not okayy! I mean im really not okayy. What if all these didnt happen and there was a easier way to communicate with him... haizzz...

Oh god... please help me..

i think im having too much pressure liao. This is really bothering me..

*Myself

Apparently, like what one of my love always point out to me. People use this space to brag about how great god's creation is or telling the world how much they detest their own race or religion or even start whining about how much they hate their ugly girlfriend or boyfriend. I find it rather weird though. If that's the case, it defeats the title man! How saddening to see them use illiterate brans with no enzyme juices to be squeezed out because it seems to be typical man! Gosh! Anyhow, judge me for yourself.

Friday, October 19, 2007

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