Tuesday, June 12, 2007

8:57 PM

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Hey there guys. How has everything been so far ? Firstly i would to wish Miss Siti Shaheera congratulations and all the best for being newly wed.

I get kind of thinking every now and then. I think life is short and we got to treasure it. Treasuring it is one thing and letting people around you know how much you need them is another.

I realise i have a very nice and understanding cheerful smiley brother. I am thinking alot after what happened just now. My bro said he was mad at me. It was my fault and that is true actually. After much thinking, i realised i could have done so much more for him.

I was reflecting on whatever you told me, your sms-es and calls. Whenever you cried and told me how terrible you were feeling. Whenever you were feeling down because your mum keeps nagging. Even times when you were so happy and excited about going out and dressing up for the first time and stuffs. I often only act as a listening ear to you. Of course i would rather want to try to do so much more. Alot of times i wanted to tell myself i would rather you be happy, joyful and carefee while i absorb all your problems to have it as mine.

I tried to be a great bro to you. I really did. Remember the time when you were crying so badly under the block because your life was in a mess ? I tried my best to comfort you and also give you a hug to make you feel better. I would never forget about you or turn my back on you. I can't stand to see you so depressed or sad. I love to see you happy and joyful.

I really enjoy your company. I enjoy your jokes, your sweet words that make me feel so appreaciated and loved as a younger brother and of course most important of all i accept you for who you are. Somehow i wish i do not have to gradute from secondary school neither should you. I just want to pursue your dreams together with you while you accompany me to pursue my dreams.

I really like to be with you because you open up my laughters when i actually don't really laugh alot eversince things happened. That's the reason why. You actually remind me of my past when i was so happy and carefree. Those days when i don't have to worry about anything. Days when i don't even have to know whether GST is incresing or not. The world really isn't a nice place to live in. Its a competitive world your'e challenging. Alot wish they grow older because of the fetish over buying ciggarettes and liqour or even clubbing. For me i wish i'm younger and could enjoy the years of being a kid.

Deeply from my heart, life would be very boring without you. I salute god for making me meet you and for you to share my life with me. I am really convinced that i see no one else worthy as you to be my elder brother. I hope you'd stay the same because i won't want to see you change a single bit.

I didn't tell you why i was down because i don't want to be a burden to you whining about the same things over and over again. I appreaciate you for hugging me whenever i needed one. For wiping my tears away. What a beautiful day of yours which i possibly spoiled because i made you mad at me. Sometimes i dwell thinking why am i being such an extra in your relationship with kak ana but yet again i tell myself that i am loved by you guys.

I would like to thank you so much. Though there may be times when we disagree on certain terms but if you think about it, overcoming it by talking terms out is a challenge. Overcoming that is something to be proud of. Wherever you are right now, i hope you would read this. I really have never met a bro like you compared to others. Thanks alot for being you.

I love you and for whatever reasons please know that i am here for you. You don't have to lie to me or hide things from me because i would definitely want to be the one to life you up when you're down. Someone who leads you when you're lost..... Keep strong...

*Myself

Apparently, like what one of my love always point out to me. People use this space to brag about how great god's creation is or telling the world how much they detest their own race or religion or even start whining about how much they hate their ugly girlfriend or boyfriend. I find it rather weird though. If that's the case, it defeats the title man! How saddening to see them use illiterate brans with no enzyme juices to be squeezed out because it seems to be typical man! Gosh! Anyhow, judge me for yourself.

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