Friday, May 25, 2007
12:09 PM
just what went wrong ?
Okay. This is for you.
Let me tell you nicely with respect. Since you don't want to be talking with me right, i respect your decision. First things first, i would like to apologise for my harsh words. For sure you would ask me why i apologise, well its because i dont find a need to use vulgur words on you. I believe you got your own mind to think and realise things, I don't need to. Ok, i admit i was being really harsh, so im sorry.
You've already published at your blog earlier on to watch my words and you'd watch yours. It's true, so if you'd want to blame me go ahead. For this issue id stand for my fault because i used harsh words and i know you'd shoot me back with the same language i used. Yes, give and earn respect. Yet again, im sorry.
Now, let's slowly analyze the whole situation. You used harsh words against me too right ? Nevermind. Okay, you don't believe my words right ? Ok fine. This matter, it's actually up to you. Seriously. I won't want to say anything. I really hope you'd think and consider. I know you treat me like your enemy. Somehow, you should have at least a bit of trust upon me of those words ? You really don't trust me ? Rmb, i told you that you know everything about me ? Why would want to lie to you. Seriously. Just think about that. It's up to you lar. This one i would not say anything and i hope you'd understand ya ?
As for the whole situation. See, you told me you know it's your fault for intruding people's privacy. That's good. I respect you for realising its your fault. Salutations to you. See, i wanna know. it's true a friend is supposed to make you realise somewhat differently, nicely and all. Or even understand you for making that move. Yes, my approach was harsh. Again, i apologise for that. But have you ever thought of reacting a nicer way ? Maybe to come to me and tell me that i've hurt you by using those harsh words on the spot. Perhaps things would have been better ? As in, though you want things to be this way. At least we would not be as terrible as this and could have been just normal acquintance. ??
Now, you asked me what i wanted ? I just want to clear this mess. I just don't want you to have the wrong impression on me. I just want you to clear this mess up. Things can remain this way if you want but at least with the table cleared. That is what i want. Yet again, i can't be unfair. So let me also ask you, what do you want ? We can always negotiate.
Next, i don't know what you've heard from others and yet again its up to you to believe or not. At least clarify. I swear it was not meant to be this way. Somehow fate made it this way. So, i can't help it. You are mature enough to think about this.
I think you've had enough and i also have had enough. That's why im approaching this way this time with so much due respect. It's not to suck up to you. It's just a nicer way to approach. I hope you'd understand too. Now let me state my feelings which i hope you'd be willing to read.
Eversince you walked away, i found it hard to treat you like a stranger. That's because you made a huge impact in my life. I swear i thank you for all that. Thanks for being there. Thanks for understanding me. Thanks for hugging whenever i needed. Thanks for so much good moments. Thanks for everything. Seriously. I wanna apologise for using alotta harsh words. It's because of my anger that made those spout. There's this one things i would like to ask you. Do you really really want things to be this way ? Do you ? Do you really really want to leave things hanging ? I swear i am really missing you . I really am. Yes, i was ego not putting this up . Now i am. I really miss you. It's really up to you to believe this or not. I did not know that my brother came to talk to you. I swear i didn't ask him to. So, sorry if he was harsh, or if he disturbed you in anyway. I just can't seem to hate you like i used to, and that's because i know the beauty of a friend is in you. The rest is up to you.
As the day went on and on, i see you staring at me. Maybe i got it wrong but somehow i feel it. It's okay. But can you give me the respect a normal human should have ? Yeah. Yet again it's your own decision from now on. I hope you'd make a wise decision.
I would like to wish you good luck in your relationship. Hope you guys don't always quarrel or fight. I wish you good luck in life, studies and your future endeavours. You were born into this world to live like a princess. So take that power and strength and live life. Thanks for showing me what you can do with that beauty of friend that you have in you. Thank you.