Sunday, April 08, 2007

7:20 PM

oh if sometimes.

And when i saw 3 stars in the sky in one direction, it only brought me memories of a couple i just lost.

Somehow or other i know all blames will come to me. And im willing to accept that. If i say its not and argue for my own rights, people say its EGO. If i sit and talk i will end up making people cry and beg on their knees. If i don't bother and just be this way, it's easier to step outta their lives.

When things were oh so not right, for the first time you were not there.

I swear its right that you did alot for me and was sincere about it. Think back twice and reflect and rate yourself. Before you even rated me, i rated you with a 9 but you didn't even know what i was talking about.

I was working really hard and didn't spend any money because i was saving up for ur 3rd monthsary, your birthday and his birthday and now i realise i am not in need of that money no more.

I spend that 470 bucks all in one day for food, movies, arcade, and all sorta nosense. Did you know that ? No you don't.

You said you were the one who always makes the first move. Even though it's your mistake or not. Think again.

Wait ? Get this right . You're not avoiding me. Let's reflect and see what does AVOID means in the dictionary. YOU ARE avoiding me. You wouldn't bother to even look into my eye. ok wait. not you. its YOU GUYS. In fact, YOU should think back and you're wrong. I made you avoid me ? Sure ? You hurt me with your words alot of times. Did i avoid you for that ? This is what i call mature. I didn't apologise because i analysed the whole situation putting myself in your shoes and found myself in the right position. This is what i call mature. Let's sit down and talk ? I think i no longer deserve that no more. Since you have your DEAR girlfriend, your guy and dear laughing partner, you would be able to have the whole lot of hearts content happiness. Go ahead and be it.

You said your moves were wrong from the beginning and has never been right. It has been right. If you feel you are always wrong then you're wrong. When you're wrong people will tell you that you're in the mistake. If you're right, no one bothers to tell you. That's what you don't understand.

You're jealous because i found a friend better than you ? Well who is it ? Tell me and ill tell you. I won't walk away but i step outta your lives. Cos i don't deserve to be standing at that position of your TRUE friend right ? fine with me. And yeah. True. Its just a matter of time before we go our seperate ways. You don't make such decisions because you will let things take its own toll. Im sorry but im so not like that.

Oh yes i remember those credits of your doings in my life. You wre never cruel.But let's see.
u wrote this.

Remember the first time we talked?
Remember the time you made me realised what true friends are?
WHO are and WHO aren't?
Remember the day we rated our friends and You rate me a 9?
Remember the first hug and we made it a daily routine?
Remember the first time you hug _____ and i made it a daily routine for you both?
Remember the day I kneel down and told you I don't wanna lose a friend like you?

I do remember the first time we talked. It was at class when i realised you and liyana were messaging inside the class. That was the first time i saw your smile. I still i remember i took my time to reflect with you and explain why THOSE PEOPLE werent your true friends. Iremember that day on june i sat down with all of you after PDP. It was a thursday and i rated you. Of course i remember the hug and we made it a daily routine. I remember the first time i hugged ______ and you made it a daily routine for us. Lastly, i do remember the time you knelt down.

Afterall, out of all these 3 out of them is credits of me in your life. 3 of them is what we WERE doing and have stopped doing now. Now analysed that ?

If i were to start my credits in your life i can keep going. But i do that all with a sincere heart and i don't need you to know. Because i don't wuite get your motive in letting me konw all these. You feel unappreaciated ? I felt it wayyyyy earlier before you felt. Because i held you well in my arms like you're my gem. Did you do the same way for me ?

Whatever all of you guys have decided on, go ahead. I can be a devil in your lives if you want. TRY ME! You won't know how you hurt me because that's how you acted.

It's not as though you're not gonna browse through my blog. I know you will. But im just stating the fact and placing the tone at its place.

Forget about it and drop it.

I've learnt to be care free and much of getting things right on how to cover up your tears. HAHA. that's lame i know.

My friend told me that it is right of me to do this. and i know its right. and im doing it. and we'll see who's in the loosing end.
since some poeple have their BOYFRIEND to go along the cruel life they're leading. then go ahead.

Anw, im sick and tired of work. Though somehow im still working.
THANKS AYIE FOR TODAY!
THATS SUPER SUPER SWEET OF YOU!
awwwww.
hahaa.
takkaire people .
that;s all i gotta rite.

BYE!

Sunday, April 08, 2007

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