Monday, April 16, 2007

6:51 PM

droplets of my tears;

as i step out of my house i witnessed a lightning that beought back memories of my past. The good and bad moments i had. It rained heavily with lightning and it was raining heavily on my face as i was walking too. I was so restless and lathargic as i was walking past each and every fence. I was losing it all. Losing the grip. Ayie was right. I am floating on the sea surface trying to get to the right path.

Each time i call someone i remembered how i once use to do a trademark dialogue. Its all now over. That was the past. Angus told fitriyah "you won't leave me that fast. i know." It means alot if you really think about it. I continously told myself not to cry when tears are flowing down my cheeks.

As i hear songs that reminded me of you. I realise i miss you so much. Your presence still lingers here in the atmosphere. I cry to know that you're gone. I cry to know that now you turn your back on me after doing much for. I cry to know you're pointing fingers at me. I cry to know you are no more there for me. I cry to know that you don't understand me when you always used to. I cry to know that when no one was there, even when your guy wasn't there for you i was there and when no one was there for me you we'rent there. I lent you a listening ear, a sharing thought, a crying shoulder and you loaned me as a temporary basis.

I rather feel you used me. I saw this coming but little did i know you wanted to use me. Now you go back to your guy and you're showing your back at me. Till here i got nothing to say.

Today i went to the hospital for check up . That ass is referring me to a neurologist. URGH! That means MORE MONEY. gawsh! and more money means more work. more work means more tired. more tired means more bodyaches and headaches. more bodyaches and headaches means less concentraition during lessons. less concentraition during lesson means bad exam results. bad exam results means no qualifications for better job. no qualifications for better job means no money. and money means cant go hospital check up. It goes round in circles over and over again.

Property, money and everything else can be taken away from you. But studies can never. That's what nargis's mother told us. Its true actually.

I remember how i was affected by everything that i was playing with my hotcakes with sausage on the breakfast base instead of eating it. and AYIE keep peeping. HAHA! i just simply am so contented that he really makes me smile. johnsten also. teehees. seriously lar seyy.

I just get so irritated when i see people's nick or personal message stating promises are meant to be broken. So whoever who wrote it please erase. cause, PROMISES ARE NOT MEANT TO BE BROKEN!

Someone wanted my help. For the first time i couldn't help him. Maybe because i am just too dumb to think of a solution. IM SO SO SORRY! i feel so useless not being to help you arh beb!

Amirul Syahmi Bin Kamal, im sooooo missing your thankiew. and of course your story telling. im just so entertained when you keep me occupied with your story telling. teehees. keep rocking.

That's all for now. BYE!

*Myself

Apparently, like what one of my love always point out to me. People use this space to brag about how great god's creation is or telling the world how much they detest their own race or religion or even start whining about how much they hate their ugly girlfriend or boyfriend. I find it rather weird though. If that's the case, it defeats the title man! How saddening to see them use illiterate brans with no enzyme juices to be squeezed out because it seems to be typical man! Gosh! Anyhow, judge me for yourself.

Monday, April 16, 2007

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