Sunday, March 11, 2007
8:02 PM
Then there are others who have completely nothing to write,
but have so much readership in their blog.
I'd rather sit back and relax, and take this blog as an online diary.
Where I can rant, and out-channel all these energy back into writing.
On a lighter note, maybe a heavier one,
Everybody has felt it someway or another.
Losing a friend,
Losing a boyfriend/girlfriend,
Losing a parent,
Losing somebody important.
This is the crux of it.
It's the point when you wait outside the A&E room,
where you sit around, pacing about the hospital because
you don't know whether he's going to survive,
the one inside you're looking out for.
You hope and you pray that he'll come out safely,
hopefully that nothing in the right mind had thrown
him into the caves of death.
It's the point when you hold on to the phone
because your girlfriend decides she doesn't want
to be with you anymore.
And you're asking for a second chance,
hoping that the reply that comes out is in favour of yours.
Because you think you want to work things out,
make things a little bit better.
It's the point when you quarrel so much with a friend
that you're so sure you're in the right
but you feel you're so wrong to be quarrelling with this friend.
It's when you're proving your point so much that
you're so sure of losing this friend if either one wont compromise.
It's when you hope that he would say, "Okay, you're right".
It's the point when you cover your ears and cowers in the corner
of your bed because you can hear your parents screaming a divorce.
And it's when you realize you have to choose between two,
either your mother or your father.
Maybe to a certain extent,
your losing of somebody weighs a little bit more than mine.
Maybe to another extent, my losing of someone
weighs a far more than yours.
But I know, and you know, and we all know
that everybody has felt the feeling of losing somebody they oh-so-treasure.
It's how things crumble.
I just want to sit away, somewhere, with my body leaned back,
just appreaciating the scene.
Oh how nice the feeling would be, I imagine.
By the sand, and the sun, and a nice little couch
which i can laze about, and have grapes by the side table.
With a cocktail by the side,
and my friends sitting right next to me,
just appreaciating the scene too.
How nice.
And all the time I act so brave,
I'm shaking inside...
Well,
sometimes it tends to get so
contradicting yet factual when
things go wrong and it seems like a dream
but it is reality and its not virtual.
It may be hard to accept these
tangled up emotions .
On the other end of sight,
you should maybe accept it as a lesson to be learnt in life.
Now, after all these said,
lets analyze this situation im in.
It might be much of a emotional rant but just bare it with me will ya readers ?
SO, i just messed up everything in my friendship.
And this feeling im feeling right now is getting
outta control.
im vexed i can say.
So, whenever i think about losing a friend,
i think about how im gonna tear my head
apart in my room while i cry alone.
I always told my friends,
even if the path they took was wrong,
grab me along.
I'll stand by them and bring them to the right one.
But now, they are acting as though nothing ever happened
between us.
And just wanna be casual friends.
Or at a losing end, maybe even a acquintance.
Analyzed ?
Her's just one question.
Can i take the blow ?
I'd just let time do the healing.
Let it happen,
and you'd see the change in me.
Trust me.
Try me.
Alright,
it's getting abit too long.
So, id better get going.
Keep tagging ya ?
see ya.
burfdae's coming. dunt lemme spend that day with tears in my eyes.PLEASE ?though it never was a special day for me.psst! hate me all u wan but i still love u...