Monday, January 29, 2007
8:29 PM
puzzled.
i cant help but to blog one more time
though i blogged minutes ago.
cos im feeling UBER TERRIBLE !
im rather puzzled by what's happening
in the daily routine of my life.
now everythings at variance.
right now,
this aggrieved,agonized,battered,
bruised,buffeted,damaged,disfigured, grazed,
offended heart of mine is still hangin on.
this chaos i've been persisting is rather getting outta control.
the love and care i used to recieve is absent.
its all absorbed and abstracted by people around me.
not forgetting this preoccupied schedule that i have to hold on to.
each time i think about not having the time to sepnd,
its pricks my heart.
this resulted to laceration.
this eccentric or rather strange feeling
is creeping behind my shoulders.
cos whatever i uttered and warned
is literally happening in front of my eyes.
this feeling is balling up.
as though its some kind of wool.
im not given any flexible plan to go ahead with.
all i am sure of is that my heart was mended
and was just broken again.
so be it.
let things be the way it is right now.
since nobody cares,
i also dont.
this is really peeving me.
i let out my breath
with a thousand tears shedding down my cheeks.
its just all shortcuts in life i am walking across.
theres no instantly made things in life.
everythings made by effort.
guess its all for now from me.
im done!