Monday, January 08, 2007
7:20 PM
ill be so much better.
its a conclusion.
theres something wrong.
2006 spoiled everything.
eversince ONE QUARREL,
everythings been terrible.
im also human.
i also have feelings.
i aint no enthusiast to make u realise
by hurting your feelings.
everyones telling me that.
would u ever noe IM HURT ?
im not a toy to tear apart.
im not a shirt which u wear
when u need it.
i aint to jerk or bastard
who acts like i care.
there are many out there.
but im real.
i aint no fake.
im obliviously hurting myself,
by reflecting yourself upon my memories.
in the potrait haning in my room,
we were normal.
happy.
please let things be normal.
oh god please ?
i promise id be better.
u were the one who took that
shining star away from me.
u were the one who affected me that made me SO
UNABLE TO CONCENTRATE DURING LESSONS!
but i made up reasons to blame someone else instead.
thats because i duwanna be sad.
i just wanna smile.
and act as tho nothing happened.
who would ever noe that ?
not you.
not them.
not anyone.
its just between me and god.
id be lying to myself if i said
i dunt care about you.
COS I DO!
but do u even care to be bothered??
u would just probably say, WHO CARES!
aint i right ?
ive had enough lar !
stop it lar !
i dun hate u.
if i do then id haf shot at u long tyme ago !
but i didnt.
tink abt it.
tink it through.
alterations can always be made
but think about it carefully FIRST !
urgh!
im out.
huda thanks eh ?=)).