Saturday, December 16, 2006
11:42 AM
stress.
urgh!
i hate this feeling.
the feeling of being sad.
of being emotinal.
i hate that feeling.
yes. u were good.
and u are good.
im not saying ure not.
but im making u even better.
but all u goota say is " u dont know why i s_ok_"
and u cant tell me.
ok fine.
u cant tell me.
i understand.
i accept it.
but i have been like a fucking slave.
ive been slogging all i can just to ask u
to stop s_ok_ng.
i put aside time JUST to bother to ask u.
but all u gotta say is that U HATE ME FOR DOING THAT.
u said i dont understand.
U DONT UNDERSTAND ME !
think...
think of how much ive sacrifised for you.
no, IMAGINATING would be enough.
just imagine how much ive sacrifised for you.
i put aside alot of other things JUST to stop u.
since u wanna noe why i started ?
its because of U.
its because i felt really terrible.
its because i was so FUCKING stressed up.
i trusted u all the while.
even now i trust u.
but u don't seem to understand.
just think .
think of what ive said.
fine. u hate me forcing u.
then stop s_ok_ng.
wouldnt it be better.
putting that aside.
u are a soccer player.
that shows that maintainig your stamina
is a MUST.
i hope after saying this, at the most least ud understand.
u noe wad readers,
the world IS ROUND.
but why isit that we cant satisfy everyone ?
anyone can answer ?
haiz.
i have this friend of mine.
HE just dont seem to know
how much ive sacrifised for him.
i threw relationship aside.
i put aside my work for a while.
i din't want my rank for a while.
but he really seems to be immune to all this.
obliviously im helping everyone.
in fact.
alot have started complaining.
i dont know, somewhat i noe tat
im one day gonna be the bad one before the end of the story.