Monday, December 04, 2006

1:42 PM

reminisce.

before i start this entry,
i want the reader to knoe that
this is going out to only ONE person.
and dunt always think its u.

i remember sometime ago.
a friend of mine promised me
to stop smoking.

a promise which made me happy.
a promise that made my day
almost everyday.

but a month later.
when again i got to noe
that the promise is being thrown
far away into the sea.

my heart shattered into a million pieces.
in fact more than a million pieces.
IT HURT.
i didnt say it.
i kept it to myself.

a shaking bridge to make me even crazy.
without even thinking .
i had a emotional breakdown.

to even think i trusted him.
why did i suddenly bring up
this topic.

when i was reading his blog,
people blamed him
for why he USED to smoke.
he never stopped at the first place.

it was all a play.
a play to satisfy me ?
id rather be satisfied if he told me the truth.
and he made his bottomline.
hes never gonna stop smoking.

while i was sturggling all along,
he was smoking all the while.

while i was being fooled like a
donkey to endure.
he was smoking all the while.

and i get blamed for everything.

without knowing i was helping him.

i wont blame him.
cos i know i gotta appreaciate my friends.

urgh.
i ve lost many.

when i had someone.
i gave that person up to another friend.

it always happens to me.

*Myself

Apparently, like what one of my love always point out to me. People use this space to brag about how great god's creation is or telling the world how much they detest their own race or religion or even start whining about how much they hate their ugly girlfriend or boyfriend. I find it rather weird though. If that's the case, it defeats the title man! How saddening to see them use illiterate brans with no enzyme juices to be squeezed out because it seems to be typical man! Gosh! Anyhow, judge me for yourself.

Monday, December 04, 2006

*Myself

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