Saturday, December 02, 2006
10:43 AM
complications;
im concerned.
why is my blog a place with
so many anoynomous taggers.
i really wanna noe.
oh-so-badly.
anyhow.
i realise smth.
i promised someone to smile always.
and ytd when he got to know that
im surrounded with problems
he got angry.
and he got really upset.
now i made another person angry.
lying in bed.
i stare at the ceiling.
askingm yself questions.
with loud music playing beside me.
i might give up my everything.
i'd give my all to have
just one more time with you
i'd risk my life to feel
a friend next to mine'
cause I can't go on
living in the memory of our song
i'd give my all for you.
some days I feel broken inside
but i won’t admit
sometimes i just wanna hide
‘cause it’s you I miss
and it’s so hard to say goodbye
when it comes to this, oooh
would you tell me I was wrong?
would you help me understand?
are you looking down upon me?
are you proud of who I am?
why am i not feeling better?
why isit that this time is the period
of time that its permenant.
and i realise no one is there.
i realise everyone walk out on me.
not knocking on my door.
i know theyre busy with their own thing.
i wont blame them for that.
i announced that im emotionally torn apart
during 02122003.
it was a tuesday.
at 11.10.
just like what im doing now.
im blogging just like that day.
3 years past.
and now im still the same person.
who never took the words back which were
sitting in my memories.
i wanna get away.
i wanna run away to somewhere
which seems nowhere.
i wanted to confide into adi.
but instead he already confided into me.
i dint feel right.
i wanted to confide into zul.
he has problems himself.
why must i bug into his life.
who ever knows that he cant be bothered.
i wanted to confide into halim.
but even he seems to have walked out on me.
i wanted to confide into athirah.
but it just gets stuck there.
i tried to confide into huda.
all the most i could talk about is ABIT
of all stuffs.
i dunnoe.
i tried sooo many other people.
it all dont seem to stop.
now yet i announce again.
im emotionally torn apart.
its been 3 years.
but this time im gonna announce that im alone.
we'll see how long this will last.
i need a miracle.
give me a chance to see and experience
a miracle.
it hurts.
it hurts alot.
LOVE.
YASIN;