Wednesday, November 22, 2006
12:36 PM
i want u to knoe.
years passed.
there was times
i laughed the most.
there were also times i cried
everytime.
i realise im emotinally torn apart.
its hard.
how long did u see me smiling.
laughing and having fun.
or rather to put it in simple words,
HAPPY.
i am sure to say for less than 2 weeks.
everyone can easily say that.
but not sincerely.
not from the heart.
not with tears filling their eyes.
im HURT.
people acting like they care.
its not as though i wanted it all.
i knoe this is fate.
a fate that cant be unwritten.
and through it all.
everything happened.
and im on my own.
caught me laughing my ass out?
thats atmosphere.
caught me crying like a loser?
that is feelings.
i dont quite knoe how to say
how i feel.
why is this feeling haunting me.
it hurts.
it hurts me alot.
im losing everyone.
im on my own.
even kak siti.
i dunnoe.
how long is she going to be there.
she herself needs me.
how about ain ?
shes not forever.
she needs me.
ALOT.
and halim ?
its just that he doesnt want to freak me out.
zul ?
who would even expect him to hate me.
as in really hate me for life.
he might haf even cursed me to death.
he might haf even made a vow to never talk to me.
sasha?
HAH!
she dont even seem to need me.
she has dinah alr.
syikin?
i noe family is gud enough for her.
yasmin?
wont she always gimme that
DUHH face.
adi ?
is he THAT free to even take a look .
sharyfah?
why am i always depending on them?
athirah ?
shes always affected by me.
kymah?
isit funny to talk about her
when she herself dont wanna
confide into me.
kak liah ?
she got a bf to confide into.
waniz ?
its not as though she even bothers.
e-ja?
why am i so stupid to even bother her.
meera ?
she cant be bothered about me at all.
arif ?
he my younger brother.
he depends on me.
nurul ?
shes having relationship problems herself.
talk about deeyana?
how FUCKED UP can she get with me?
so?
shoot me another name.
all i ever wanted was for everything to be
a better place.
and out there people are thinking that i am playing
the mr OH-SO-NICE.
FUCK HELL CARE!
somehow.
somewhat.
i noe hatred is all around.
FUCK.
hate me all u wan.
im off.
HELL CARE...