Friday, October 13, 2006

3:02 PM

tears;

u noe wad people ?
YET AGAIN.
i did not sleep again ytd.
so its been 5 nights.
haiz.

i dunnoe.
im alr missing alot of people.
especially SOME of em.
i would have slept ytd.
zul was alr calling me crazy when
he got to noe that i din sleep.
so i thought i wanted to sleep.
but i ended up thinking of all the people i miss.

i started thinking how i was going to last.
this WHOLE one week without them.
i was thinking how i was going to last
the WHOLE 2 month without them.
i ended up asking myself what i can do
to stop thinking about them.
but no solution crept up.
im already missing alot of people.
haiz.

readers, im going to share something.
there was once when it was after my exam.
my friends and i were on the way to lot 1.
i was at the juntion of the road.
when everyone was waiting for car to pass
by before they could cross.

but i just went ahead to cross.
from far ahead, i could see the car coming in speed.
the weather was kinda wet then.
i was praying to myself that the car would hit me.
wad i was feeling then was really crazy and freaky.
then when the car pass by me.
or was rather near me,
someone from behind shouted.
"oi yasin! you crazy ar ?!"

i cant be bothered to turn
and ask who shouted.
but i recognised the voice.
im not gonna say who.
but i realised something.
when he said those words,
something .. i dunt noe wad.
but something just filled my heart
with anger.
i sensed that the person was angry.
i wanted to apologise.
but then i couldnt.
i couldnt cos i was feeling like utter rubbish.
i suddenly felt so invalueble.
then i prayed hard that he wouldnt haf felt hurt.
but my feelings were telling me he was hurt.

this person is someone
whom im really really attached to.
i dunnoe why.
but ive nvr been so attached like this before.
it feels like he's my own brother whom
god present to me before anything.
i noe that person is not gonna read this.
but im just riting anw.

when yesterday before i sleep,
the first two people who came
to my mind was that person and his bestie.
now that ive stepped into their lives, i think
its time i back off.
but i just cant.
i need help.
their help.
i need them to avoid me.

ive already told them.
but they dont seem to do so.
haiz.
words really touched my heart.
they told me that they can feel
what im feeling.
when i was sick at fadhil's house.
they were the one that asked me upteen times
if im okay.
they were the ones who shed tears.
not even family did.

now at this point of time.
at this very sit.
at 11.50 pm.
on 12 october.
at my house.
in front of my computer.
im shedding tears.
cos im missing them badly.
i wanna give them a hugely-enormous
love filled hug.
i dunnoe why.
but its only been one day.
and im missing them ?
oh crap.
is that wad ure thinking ?
i bet u are.
but who cares.
this is my feelings.

yeah.
its true.
im really missing them.
i hope i can sleep tonight.
just hope that tmr they
would meet up and sit at macs.
i wanna see them.
i wanna see their faces.
it really makes me happy.
yeah.

love is shown to people
who touch your heart.
given choices to urself
to choose who u can love.
choose them by asking urself real deep.
then you will know.

then im also missing another friend.
another one who i just became real close with.
were in contact with msn.
but i dunnoe.
she just touched my heart when she helped me.
when she listened to me.
yeah.
i told her to come online whenever
she sensed if im online.
but i still miss her. haiz.

too all my friends.
I LOVE U!

*Myself

Apparently, like what one of my love always point out to me. People use this space to brag about how great god's creation is or telling the world how much they detest their own race or religion or even start whining about how much they hate their ugly girlfriend or boyfriend. I find it rather weird though. If that's the case, it defeats the title man! How saddening to see them use illiterate brans with no enzyme juices to be squeezed out because it seems to be typical man! Gosh! Anyhow, judge me for yourself.

Friday, October 13, 2006

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