Saturday, October 28, 2006
5:50 AM
agony;
hey there everybody.
sorry fer not updating for long.
have been rather busy.
complications haf not been undone.
there may be a joyous occasion.
but right now onli one thing can make me happy.
for you to be alright.
and stabilised.
yasin sucks.
indirectly everyone has been telling that.
its time i left the world.
im not needed anymore.
guess i noe that.
24/10/06 n 25/10/06.
it sucked.
and it still sucks.
in agony i cry to myself.
knowing that its my mistake.
you're killing me slowly.
and i noe that.
am i worrying too much?
nope.
i am certain im not.
im just caring.
so i am.
yeah.
perhaps i am treating everyone like a small kid.
this is not the first time people tell me.
i haf got this time and again.
over and over and over again.
but after some time people thank me.
but i think its time i should stop doing this.
i shouldnt blame u for everything.
cos i noe im in the mistake here.
guess i should create a new blog.
and gif the URL to some pple onli.
cos everyone can read everything here.
there nothing i wanna do to have this
one more chance.
its just a matter of time.
when everyone walk out on me.
ive hurt myself.
over and over again.
270906 i promiesd myself
i would nvr walk out on the people.
but now i realise that i am not needed.
cos im too yucky.
nahh.
no one needs to apologise to me.
I NEED to apologise to alot of people.
i noe im slowly loosing the war.
but wad can i say.
its okay.
im sorry for blaming you for everything.
thanks for all you've done.
it always happens.
then its nvr gonna br like it was before.
i know it.
i just noe it.
i also promised myself to be happy in school.
in front of everyone.
id try not to let emotions take over.
thats all for now.
it hurts.
alot.
but hu cares right ?
fine.
i noe u dont nid my concern.
but its okay.
tears;
to all of my friends: despite wadeva happened
i still love you.
but u dun hafta love me back in return.
its true.
takkaire.
LOVE;
yasin.