Tuesday, September 12, 2006

11:41 PM

pain-ed;

right.
so... everything JUST happened at home.
everythings wrong.
yupp.
its my fault.
yeah. everyones better than me.
you regret having a child like me.
i get 0 fer my exams.
true enough that i am the worse kid u can
ever have.

i hate myself.
im just ....
urgh.
sometimes it feels just so terrible ah.
i dunnoe why. but it just feels terrible.
it pains my heart.
can i cry ?

it doesnt hurt me.
but the whole package together hurts.
whole package meaning the problems my friends have.
it hurts me.
cos they are confiding into me.
and im useles..
i am not helping.
they dun seem to be improving.

so wad if huda promised me.
im still not helping her.

so wad if athirah told me everything.
im not helping.

so wad khair tells me his complications.
i just listen.
so wad zul tell me ALL and every single of his problem.
im not giving a solution at all.
im sitting and staring at it in fact.

yah.
it is all true.
im at fault.
im sorry everybody.
i apologise for any mistakes i did in the past or present.
but i just hope ud understand.

hah.
like anybody understands right ??

like wad ain wrote in her blog.
u come her either because u were passing-by

or

to see if im bitching abt u so that u can bitch
me back at your blog.

or

to know abt wads happening in my oh-so-exciting life.

yeah.
nvm. its okay.
guess the comp is the one i confide into.
like hu cares rite ?
yeah.
i noe.
its okay. u dun care.
nvm.

but please remember.
whehter u care abt me or not.
I CARE ABOUT ALL MY FRIENDS.
i dun need ur love in order for me to love u.

im just too hurt again and again
for me to say anything.

i dun nid no one to care for me.
cos i suck.
i noe that.
u dun haf to tell me.
just tell me straight on my face.
tell me that i suck.
tel me that i dun fit to be a friend.

but wadeva it is.
i still love all my friends.
=))

its okay.
im smiling.

if one dae i were to die, and u got to know
abt it, please come to my funeral.
cos friends were the ones whom i treasure most.
LOVE,HUGGS n KISSES to everyone.
=)) takkaire everyone.
i apologise for my past mistakes.
and wadeva happened.

*Myself

Apparently, like what one of my love always point out to me. People use this space to brag about how great god's creation is or telling the world how much they detest their own race or religion or even start whining about how much they hate their ugly girlfriend or boyfriend. I find it rather weird though. If that's the case, it defeats the title man! How saddening to see them use illiterate brans with no enzyme juices to be squeezed out because it seems to be typical man! Gosh! Anyhow, judge me for yourself.

Tuesday, September 12, 2006

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